My wife of 38 years is in heaven. I think about her in heaven every day. Now there’s an empty space in my heart and time. The empty space in my heart is loneliness. Loneliness is a byproduct of grief. When you lose a person you loved and who loved you then you will feel loneliness. Loneliness is the feeling of being unloved. There is no loneliness in heaven because God is love (1 John 4). In heaven we will be embraced, enveloped, and satiated in the love of God. It will permeat every space in our glorified bodies and souls. If you think true love feels good to your body and soul now in this world under the curse of sin, then you will be completely overcome, “blown away”, by the love of God in heaven. (I loved falling in love with my wife, the feelings and excitement, but nothing compares to God in love with me.) We were created to live and move and have our being in God’s love (Acts 17:28). Only the Spirit of God can completely satisfy the need to be loved and heal all loneliness. Here’s a Bible verse for those who are experiencing grief and its lonliness: Psalm 34:18: The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.
The empty space in my time is a new freedom. I am free from 24/7 caregiving. Free to do what? What does the Lord want me to do with the new freedom He’s given me? So, I’m seeking the LORD. What am I supposed to do now? The LORD has left me here without Sandie, so what is His will? What is my mission while I’m still in this world? I will continue serving as a hospital chaplain. It partially fills the empty space in my heart and time. I may serve again as a pastor if the LORD guides and provides.
Wilenghart’s Wisdom 